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FCUK MAN. ECONS IS SUCH A BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! JUMPS AROUND, STRETCH, YAWNS, CURSES, GET BACK TO WORK.

hai yah. annnnoyinnnnng lorrrrrrrrrr. dont want to go into details but owell. dont have to ask me who, WHO ELSE?
ECONS PROJ! OMGNESSSS. TMRW DEADLINE! SEE ME PIA-ING TONIGHT MAN. LAST PROJ OF THE SEM! :)

Cindy DND says (8:43 PM):
HAHAHA
wah lau.
her blogj
jitao spam camwhore pic can
lool
i just kept scrolling down
dont even bother to read

xq says; And you know that's what our love can do. says (8:44 PM):
YAH I YTD ALSO JUST SCROLL DOWN
I THINK HER BOYFRIEND NOT GOOD LOOKING LOR
I LOVE HECTOR EVEN THOUGH HE IS S-U-P-E-R ANNOYING AT TIMES!

Cindy DND says (8:45 PM):
HAHAHA
YOU DAMN RANDOM

dont even know why am i blogging. JAE posting out tmrw. BYE.

what's right?

okay. i went to school today, than met up hectorphan at tm for a satisfying meal@crystal jade. DIM SUM! alrdy planned to eat it like last night, must have seh. cny, eat chinese food.

i totally understand what cindy meant by when you lose inspirations and motivations in life. i feel so tired with all the projects man. last one left, econs! OHMAN. thats like my most akjhasklfhksjh module. cos i definately suck in it. help someone? i think i feel more of a tired and. owell. one more month, hang on there!




sometimes i really dont knw what i should do, what's really right?

day 2: basically not much. cos most people visited ytd alrdy. so we had some lunch at mos burger@compass
than went back my aunt's place, slack around. than aunty helen/hectorphan ask me to go over to their place. that smart boy say only like the 3 of them and some cousins. BUT, ITS LIKE SUPER ALOT PEOPLE LEHHHH. a few of their aunts, and the granddad. i was quite, traumatized okay. like when i went in at first, i stun. than for bout 5 mins i was feeling very the !@#$%^&*

very the jingzhang. OMGNESS!

gambled. and PLEASE, LADY LUCK TOTALLY NOT SHINING AT ME. I LOST LIKE 20 BUCKS PLUS. -.- nvrmind lah, was quite fun though. hahahahah! gladys was kinda unlucky too. like me, cos we keep getting the same cards, somehow.

mimi in pomelo! me and my aunt went to like cut the pomelo, and make it into a hat for him. SEE HOW PISSED HIS FACE WAS.
IMAGINE HIM SAYING: JOKER OF THE DAY?! ONE MORE TIME AND MY CLAWS ARE OUT!

i took out the hat, but he damn buay song. hahahaha. cos we were totally laughing at him all the way.

than we tried on james! HE LOOK LIKE MAS SELAMAT RIGHT! OR THOSE MUSLIM GUYS, WITH THOSE HAT THINGGG!




giving his usual, whiney face. amy's best friend.


going for a walk! that old man very smart lor, he knows that he alw step on his leash, so he will like go bite it to make it shorter :) he is 13 YEARS OLD. GOING ON 14. OLD AND WHINEY AND ACT CUTE. MUST BE THE SECOND CHILDHOOOD.


i love james! and mimi that stupid cat. awwwwwwwwww. totally miss them super alot! i kissed james before i left, but i think he's angry :( cos he hates people to go back/say bye. but i also have to go home/meet hector what!
and i kissed hector when i saw him. cos he came downstairs to wait for me(went by cab) OOOOOPS.
and now that silly boy thinks that im betraying him!

first day of new year gone.
staying at my aunt's place right now, cos i dont go visiting as everyone will just come here. so every year i will just stayover, and collect hong pao! its 130 now and im super lazy. so i just bathe, but didnt wash my hair. im not dirty okay! just that im home the whole day, in air conditioned room so yeah.
but im alw very paranoid when i dont wash my hair, i'd feel itchy. so thats what im feeling right now! but im also going back home tmrw anyway! tmrw night lah, can wash hair alrdy.

hongpaos this year is not so good. like 300plus? not even 400 if im adding the ones tmrw. THAT IS SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

okay, xq work hard during hols to satisfy your bank. its getting hungry.

happy new year eve's eve! okay.
-school@9am (makeup lesson for commskills cos of cny)
-kfc with amy, chengyu, donn and clarence
-home
-slept from 1plus to 6
effect: SHIOK
-my laoshi came over for dinner
-lotsa fooood
-few glasses of red wine
-turning pink on my cheeks
-sleeepy
-playing neopets
-sleeping sooon! reunion dinner tmrw

HONG BAO HONG BAO HONG BAOOOO!!!

pictures from crystal's 18th! on on the 18th jan.
not much photos with me, cos i reached there later due to jazz lessonsss.











ignore my face -.-

im blogging again. due to idk why! like i just feel like bloggingggg.
its friday, 3:53 am now! FINALLY FINISH MY COMMSKILLS. ahhhh, its such a bitch! totally had no mood to do the whole night. only started bout 2plus am. than drift here and there, finally finish like 1hours plus later.

HAPPY-NESSSSS. but pom and econs soon. DAMN SPOILER.

just on a random note, i cant wait to grow up sometimes. but sometimes i just want to stay 17.

i want to get married, with lotsa kids (no sons please!) with a happy family. with my wedding planning job. ah, beautiful. earn money, indulge in labels. Woooahhhhhh. FEELING EXCITED NOW! seeing people get married really makes me very happy, adrenaline surging through my body DRAMA-MAMA.

but i want to stay 17. carefree life(without projects, life is perfect) no worries, at least not as much as adults. no burdens. happy dating :) have a life of your own, but limited spending power! nah,i can stick to online shopping for now. chicstory!
sometimes i feel so uncertain bout my future. my no.1 unrealistic dream, be like julie kent(this American Ballet Theatre first class ballerina, dancing even after she got kids/married at 43! with perfect figure)
but my more realistic one is events planner/wedding planner. wedding planner is the ultimate no1!

i think my results make me feel very insecure. idk idk idk. poly results really scares me, cos it accumulates. its the AVERAGE. ah, so many what ifs. its so competitive out there, me no want to be another normal poly grad, doing something that you dont want, due to your lousy results.
i want to do what i want. OKAY. STUDY HARD XQ.

im super random i know. but i just suddenly thought of the pretty dress Cameron Diaz wore in 'What happens in Vegas' so pretty right! like simple and.... RARRR.
i super love the dress in the eye or something, by jessica alba. frigging hot! that dress is in pretty gold toooooo.
BLESS ME WITH A BODY LIKE THAT MAN! OMGOMGOMG. I WILL LOVE MYSELF MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD. EVEN THOUGH I LOVE MYSELF RIGHT NOW :) BUT WILL LOVE IT MORE IF ITS SO PERFECT! JESSICA ALBAAAAA!
i promise i wont be such a glutton :/

motivation?!

french and world issues is kinda done, so 2 cds down.
ahhhh, reflection journal. commskills is such a retarded module. totally not motivated to do anything now. i just want to go and SLEEEEEEEP. feel like gambling though >.<>
econs! POM! ROARS. i'v been spending so much til i dont even know how much i have in my bank (dont dare to look also lor)

haiyah. going to watch performance dvd. prolly be motivated to do some work after that!

boy,i do need some basic tops. come on cotton on! come on online sellers! and im loving the La Senza top, isnt it cindy!

/edited (totally copied from cindy's blog!) omg i love you girls super the uber the very the frigging the askjdfhaslkjdfhalkdfhlaskjf much! !@#$%^&*(

And a lighter note, I had so much fun talking to XQ-me just now!

We were talking about random stuff and led to topics like, marriage and kids!
I was like saying, I wanna be her kids' godma and I will always remind and bitch to her kids HOWWWWWWWW BAD SHE IS. HAHAHA, Glutton... fat... crazy.. etc etc.!

We were like wondering what if her kids inherit her traits! I was like OH NO...! :S

So I reckon my kid will have my traits too! And my kids will befriend her kids and someday, our kids would be like..."You know your mom very _______ one weh!!
My mommy told me one!" to each other. HAHA.

What's funnier, we imagined that...Audrey's kid would be like Audrey, forever screaming..."DON'T TOUCH MEEEEEE!" (maybe her kid will be hygiene freak) or like..."EXPLAIN!"(HMMMMMMMMMM. the Meltz' gene? HAHA)

Amy's kid would be like Amy, forever suaku about food..."WHAT'S THIS! I NEVER EAT BEFORE! I HATE VEGGGGIE!!"(watch out for constipation k, Amy!)

Nurul's kid would be like Nurul, forever digging nose and... show her "little friend" like..."YOU WANT?"(HAHAH, ME AND XQ SAID THE SAME THING TOGETHER!)

AUDREY I KNOW YOU WANT TO SAY, "DON'T IMAGINE, IMAGINE LEHHHHH!" OR "DON'T IMAGINE SCENARIO LEHHHHHHH!"

But, must imagine! Cause you wouldn't be in town till next Wednesday! :( Lurbexzsxs euuzsxzs berrliezx berrrliezzx muchiiiez okayexzxz!
(EVEN THOUGH I NEVER GIVE YOU SOME DYING PURPLE ROSE. AHAHAH) -xq must emphasize this man! yah lah, the thoughts that counts!
Really really had a good laugh. Talked about our childhood stupidity. Really really retarded! Okay, I'm feeling abit lighter now. Girlfriends- the best people you can ever have. :)
AND SHIT, I DON'T WANT TO CHANGE CLASS CAUSE I LOVE THESE GIRLS ABIT TAD TOO MUCH! <3>

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xq says; And you know that's what our love can do. says (11:51 PM):
WALAO. NOW LIKE THAT LAH. TOTALLY GO AGAINST ME SIAL,today you all keep saying my macaroni lor
Cindy says (11:51 PM):
hehe
like that then fun what
xq says; And you know that's what our love can do. says (11:52 PM):
use me for entertainment, need money lor.

P/S IM GOING TO WEAR JEANS TMRW! EXCITED :)

YAY! I PACKED MY ROOM. going to eat my dinner later and than i shall start on work!
reached home at like 2pm today, felt really weird cos im home so early. supposed to meet hector, but his momo wanted him to stay home and clean the house(potential househusband/maid) so yeah.
had my lovely 3 hours nap! SHIOKKKKKK.
been buying alot things online this few days. AHHHH! cos i cleared my wardrobe, and boy i do need new clothes!

NEW year = NEW clothes (best equation i ever come across)

20th feb: econs
24th feb(8 more months to my 18th!) : POM&marketing
25th feb: FNB
HOLIDAYS! ~

its going to be work work work, money money money, play play play, shop shop shop, dance dance dance, date date date! flamenco festival in april, excited!
and audrey is super high today, correct anot amy&cindy! *in the very very very very very very very very very soft and gentle voice (insider's joke)

okay kope-d this from cryst's blog. JM WHERE ARE THE PHOTOS, UPLOAD LEH.
we always have the same position! SEE!

confused

SHOULD I BUY?! BUTTTTT ITSSSSSS TWENTY-FIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

spring clean!

i'v just spring cleaned my wardrobe! EMPTY MAN. im going to fill it up really soon :) YES I WILLLLLL!

left with: commskills, marketing, econs, pom, world issues, french roleplay.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL <3333

17th jan
had a shopping date with jiamin ytd. caught up alot. you know alot missing months. it was good, but shopping in sg nowadays is like. EW. bought two tops, quite happy with it. no new year clothes, just plain clothes that can be worn to school. whats wrong with singapore retail shops nowadays man. XQ GOT MONEY ALSO DONT KNOW HOW TO SPEND LOR :D:D:D so i spend on fooooood! anyway, town was crowded shit, esp far east. and far east is a super rip off. i swear im nvr going there again, apart from bubble tea, fried mars bars and gelare. if not, nooo! im not entering there again!

18th jan
supposed to wake up at 1030 to do proj, but somehow, i just woke up at 115 instead. went to dance, left early and cabbed to cryst place. her birthday! :) HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL!!!! had a great time man. watch this video!
-->effects of spinning tooooo muchhh! :):):):):):):)
of me,jiamin,yunjia,crystal,kelvin,jacob and keith spinning and falling. HILARIOUS. watched alot times and laughing like mad til im tearing. HAVE A GOOD LAUGH! michelle yeo, you missed out so much fun seriously!

p/s didnt take photos w my cam. i forgot to bring out the memory card! dang~muddle headed like cindy alrdy. shit.

happy birthday my dear :)


FNB DONE! YAY! (not last min work okay)

im super in love with Mcfly! their songs makes me really happpppppy!!!! :):):):):):):) ALL ABOUT YOU IS STIL MY NO1 FAVE. i went to cut the song, and use the chorus part for my ringtone lah. that ringtone only for hector lor. than Smile as my ringtone. i love to hear my phone ring with Smile!

only ringtone that is non-mcfly is gfs one, its dreamgirls!


today was a boring day. so let me recount what happened ytd.
-marketing presentation ytd
-cindy is a blur queen, marketing 11 but thought it was 12
-went to itas and ate my BELOVED YONG TAU FOO. which i choked, and made me teared. (cant control ah)
-cabbed down to rebertson quay
-denise the wine shop! super nice people :) super cold storage area, where they keep their wines. the exp one! 12 degreees lor.
-met up with hector <3
-fish&co
-shopped at far east for his new year clothes while me nvr shop at all. not really in the mood today, kinda tiredddd. and far east is a ripoff!
(the polka babydoll top that chicstory have, selling for 18? and far east is selling for 39. WTF)

my legs seems to have lesser orh-chey nowwww^^^

xq says; in 365 days all i ask is one, name it after me. says
i had like a not very random thought ytd when i was on the way home.
xq says; in 365 days all i ask is one, name it after me. says
i was thinking of like his results right. than i was thinking can it be cos of me, than he couldnt concentrate properly and stuffs.
Jiamin . .. . - I AM READY!!!!! says
i kinda knew you would think of that

i'v photos to post. but im too lazy to go and get my memory card here. im just toooooo lazy.
anyway, went cp with cindy today. wah, things there was disappointing. arnold's and bused home. i loveeee cindyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy <33333333

release of 'O' level results today, and hector is kinda upset/disappointed with his results. two more points to vj? so i guess its poly for him now. but sp.... far far away from tp neh.
honestly speaking, im more than happy that he goes poly
1) same world
2) same timezone. like poly hols, poly exams. not like jc, totally opposite of poly. the hols and exam period. kinda sian also

but i just think that he will be happier in jc? like his scores are stil pretty good, SA?CJ?AJ? owell. he wants to go poly do his fly fly course, his choice!
projects projects, madness this two weeks. all the proj submissions! all of them are before CNY. damn -.-
only econs after CNY. WORK HARD XQ!!!!!
audrey, im still having the cleaner thought okay. wait i cant get employed howwww. unemployment rates now so high!

you

ohno. projects are coming. i dread those days.. seriously! check out my eye bags yo. but owell, end sem exams are coming and YES HOLIDAYS!!
someone tuition me econs, i suck in it. SIGHSSSZZZ.
went kinda high with cindy before econs lect. idk why, i think im sleepy thats why. BARBIE AH CINDY!
mehz. i miss HP!

its just..i dont know what to say.

she feels hurt when she is being deemed by her best friend for being heartless

okay, my temper sucks. i admit when im pissed and stuffs, words that comes out from my mouth, is totally eff up and totally filled with sarcasm.
yes, it is not very nice to be hurt with words of sarcasm.
"like it makes a diff, you might get a B if you dont study for a night/afternoon" if i want to be that super bitch and dig out the past and be mean again, this is what im going to say: its just a performance. its just a birthday. its just a friend.

It's not very nice when you don't think about the reason behind a decision made.
i totally agree with that. what i think is, would 3 hours make a difference? on a saturday night, studying for 3 hours is vital. okay, perhaps to you it is. i forgot, you are much more studious, hardworking.
yes, im lazy, i totally agree with that. but even if i have one proj submission on the 19th jan, and most proj due around that day, i would stil go for crystal's birthday party. even i were to stay up til 6am or not even sleeping.
so that is: different thinkings.

I'd rather us have a normal status as friends now than having a labeled name that you will use to make me feel guilty and pressurized.
yah, being gfs is so pressurizing. its like an almost empty shell, but trying to hard to make something out of it. do all of us actually try to meet up? what happened to new year day? im not trying to make a hill out of a molehill, but where's the effort to keep things going? we practically met up ONCE this year, as a whole.
if you are more comfortable with just a normal status as friends, than why not? so in that way, you are not being obliged to do something which you probably wouldnt want to do. basically, its is easier to reject someone when we have a normal status of friends.

the new ng xiaoqi in 2009, is trying a new thing called: not making people to feel obliged to do something that they dont want to do, and learn to take things easily. and also try and think like others, cos everyone thinks differently. i dont know if it will work everytime, but as for now. i think it would.

this friendship was the most important, the closest one, indesribable.
but actions have shown how much one party mean to another. perhaps, im too overwhelmed with my performance, that to other people its just another thing that you will be watching on some particular night. as petty as i am, im just going to say, if you really had the heart to do it, you will. even a sms counts. but looks like it was forgotten, and it was totally brushed off even when you came back. so what if you read my blog? so if i dont have a blog, probably it would have been forgotten totally/wouldnt even been mentioned.

i totally admit that it is very tiring, cos i seriously dont understand alot of things. regarding bout the case, in the first para, being sarcastic and not thinking about the reason behind a decision made.
cos i cant see meeting up for a very simple lunch, lets say two hours. even if you were to reject, instead of saying something like:
i really dunno, your birthday is right smack
it would have been better if it was something like:
As will be round the corner so maybe cannot stay out too late/long OR
there's stil 10months to it. lets see how when time comes.
or something thats a little more positive would have been greatly appreciated. i really didnt want things to turn out this way, it takes two hands to clap.

if i know something mean alot to my friend, no matter what, i will try my best to do it/make it. especially when that friend do mean something to you.

even if she know that putting more ice cream into the cake, taking more dry ice than one should actually take,is wrong and eventually got scolding from one of the senior staff. cabbing down from the orchard house to suntec. from suntec to pasir ris to deliver the cake asap. from pasir ris to studio area for some appointment after that. the whole cost would approximately taken up one week worth of pay, but she didnt mind.
she had blamed myself for not being a rich kid, when she wanted to buy a paul frank watch for her friend. it was a school day for her the next day, but just to spend time with her friend so they had a stayover which resulted in total lack of sleep and practicallly died in her school the next day when lessons ended at 6. she felt worried for her friend upon knowing all the problems she was facing with her families. she knows that her friend have alot things bottling inside her heart, she do feel sad for her friend. she try and make it to her friend's band concert even when her mum's nagging cos exams are coming and was caught up with endless projects. she cries herself to sleep when her best friend is no longer one. she feels so jealous when she reads other blogs and find how happy other people are with their sec school cliques/mates/besties. she dreamt of her friends at her wedding dinner, being her maid of honour/emcees etc. is this turning unrealistic?

she really will/wanted to do alot things for her friend.

yes, im heartless. im sarcastic. im mean. the way i weigh this friendship is very disappointing. i disappoint you. ask yourself honestly, have you really really really tried? you would probably say that you are very tired of all this and you are not going to care bout it anymore. im not sure if its 'anymore' because have you really really tried and do something your friend? or is it simply that, when problems arise, you just try. but once failed, than it will be the end of it. or maybe you are just very busy with you life now, and have many important stuffs to do where such stuffs aint that importabt for immediate attention. i dont know. i really dont.

i really want to try and make things better.

p/s sorry if i have alot of grammatical errors/typos.

happy new year!

happy new year! been so tired that i haven been exactly online. 2008 just zommed passed me, and i guess 2009 wil be over in a wink.

looking back at 2008, it had been a pretty good year, with some ups and down. but quite alot of ups apparently. my o level results aint fantastic, but it definately allowed me to settle in my desired course. so that was one big load off my shoulders, al the worrying and stuffs.
poly life is great, other than my current results kinda sucks. (OB!) okay, its more than OB.

gfs: we haven been meeting up often. and some unhappiness somewhere, here and there. but i hope things do get better which i think not, cos all of you are busying with As. and xq the lonely soul in poly. but we wil find a way, wont we? i love you girls.

polymates:
i love my great friends. not forgetting amy lame-ness that sometimes it just makes you....... i never thought poly friends would be the people i can confide in and talk to, but you guys have proved me wrong. ahhh, i dont want to change class :( but bottomline is, the few of us tgt can alrdy (I KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE GOING TO SAY LOR. ITS NOT PURPOSELY, ITS A FACT)

balletfriends (even if some of you might not get to see it):
the performance really brought us much closer tgt. and all those outings. AND OF COURSE, NOT FORGETTING PEI/LP/IP MAN(LOL!) AND GLADYS PHAN! so many classic jokes that made me laugh til i have stomach's muscle ache, and those talks etc etc. or talks that our inter class have, with nicole who knows it all. we aint political at all(like the you know which class uh pei) we are like a family :) dance company girls! so now we have the whole class in flamenco! EXCITED!

hector phan junwen: its another year hun. look at how time flies! we'v been talking to each other/dating/got together for like near 3 years alrdy! though official date was very much later. all this while, you definately brought me alot of joy, and laughters. it had all been smooth, other than silly quarrels once in a while. and more major ones wil be dota. 2009 will be kinda bumpy, but we pull it through wont we? i love you baby :)

how i celebrated my new year eve/new year day:
1. met up with 4e4 peeps
2. grocery shopping, checked in, prepare for bbq
3. hector came.
4. card game all night/twister for a short while. SUPER HILARIOUS
5. countdown!
6. taupok
7. continue card games. played murderer for super long. and when we play murderer is kinda noisy, when its supposed to be like quiet? LOL
8. heart attack, name game, homo
9. 6plus am. slept for 2 hours or so
10. checked out
11. breakfast at parkway with hector!

FIRST MEAL OF 2009, IS WITH HECTORPHAN. MAC'S HOTCAKES! HAHAHAH!

our murderer game. people who died have to put cards on their heads to show that they are dead! with cards that chong ee have placed on his very clean feet.