i'm soooo tired. seriously, waking up early can kill me! i wonder how i survived secondary school.

anyway, I SAW IRINA DVOROVENKO AND MAXIM BELOSERKOVSKY TODAYYYYYYYY! due to priorities to the sp students who are attached to the company for this event for their final year project, I did not managed to be fully in charged of any of the ballerinas. I'm like partial in charge. But I'm fully in charged of one of the musicians though, Conrad Tao.

Anyway, Irina and Maxim are like, husband and wife. how cool! even got a 5 year old kid :) so coooooool.

tmrw is a full day, my in charge know i'm quite dying to be with the dancers, so she's so nice. She let me run around with her tmrw! :) eggcited. So I'l do a bit of everythingggggg. Saturday is the performance alrdy, OHMAN. I WANNA WATCH THE OPEN REHEARSALLLL.

OKAY. EXCITED TO THE MAX. I FEEL LIKE CRYING, TEARS OF EXCITEMENT AND HAPPINESS. I'M SERIOUS. I CAN FEEL THE TEARS SOMEWHERE BEHIND MY EYES.

hello world. my room lights died on friday, so I'v been surviving on candlelights :O
i've been kinda busy, and yet i was not. oh whatever.

WARNING: WORDY AND LENGTHY POST

So, one week ago i met up the girls to mr malvin lim's place for housewarming! its been REAAAALLLLY long since we'v all met up(minus yj) everyone's busy preparing for exams, and i'm like the only freebird. haha! but owell, your hols will come soon. study hard girls!

p.s. sorry no pics yet! i reformatted my comp,so everything right now is like default. even the background pics and all. my lappie currently do not have any files or whatsoever! so need to do some dl-ing here and there, before everything sets in place nicely!

Wednesday, 23rd sept, Pie's surprise bday! he's so vulgar when he's shocked! at least he met up with his princess shawn-ey :D it was surprise dinner w Pie(of course), Amy(of courseeee!), xq, hec, shawn and Justin the Cinderella! Swensen's 1 for 1 all day @ Marina Sq!

The rest of the days were basically slacking around,(oh, i went to iluma! FIRST TIME SIAL. THE UGLY TRUTH, FUNNY TTM! VIBRATING UNDIES, MICH'S 21ST BDAY PRESENT!)
wasting my life away playing neopets and watching tv, and also meeting my mr hector phan! (We've been meeting up like RE-A-L-L-Y alot! last time used to be like, 3/4 times a week, but now is almost everyday? haha! well, at least I wont be wasting my life away)

anyway, main highlight was 26th september 2009, saturday!
event #1: xq and hec's 1.5 official anni (supposedly our last celebration for the .5s anni, it will be yearly next year onwards!)
event#2: bitch mich stayover @ xq's house!

event #1: xq and hec
1. went to marina square
2. Swensens again :$ 1 for 1 mah, second last day of promo!
3. open present :) hahahah, super sweet gift w a even sweeter gift, MY LONG TIME CRAVING FOR SNOWSKIN MOONCAKE! :O:O:O:O fattening, but whatever.
4. waolked around, decided to watch fame. but marina sq dont have good timings, walked to suntec, eng wah dont even have the show -.-
5. it was a wrong move to go suntec, ended up spending a lil fortune at arcade :$
6. went to PS to watch fame!
7. FAME (Y)
8. subway wrap
9. train-ed home
10. made mich wait for bout 15mins :$
11. mich is jealous, cos she don't have a boyf!

event #2: xq the innocent, with mich the ultra bitchi-fied bitch
1. talked
2. talked
3. gossip
4. gossip
5. fell asleep, snuggle snuggle <3333333
6. wake up
7. wedding mags
8. gossip
9. talk
10. mich go tuition
11. xq eats good meal <3

TAGGED BY CINDY!
1. How would you picture yourself?
I hate studying, other than resort ops(okay, sucker) I am not mathematically inclined, which i strongly believe that its the genes. Accounting and Econs are the greatest bane of my life!
I want alot of things, yet I'm such a dreamer. Many times, I'd dream bout how beautiful my future/things will be, but instead of working for it, I catch myself dreaming bout it more than being practical, showing them with actions.
When I'm pissed/grouchy/whatever, I feel the need for people around me to give in to me, but if they don't, I'd feel ultra be-ultra !@#$%^&, yet forget bout my !@#$%^ in a while(most of the times)
I think I had gotten this from my aunt, (cos I'm total opposite of my mum for this), I love crowds(as in family gatherings kinda crowd, not THAT kinda crowd), I love gatherings, I love family gatherings.
I like things dramatic ;)

2. How would you picture yourself in 2 years?
By xq's plan, I'm working right now. Giving myself 2 years after poly to work and decide which area I want to go into and only to go Uni when I'm pretty sure of what I want to do.
oh, and happily with mr hector phan botak(army by than!)


3. How would you picture your best friend?
My best friend would be someone that i'd talk to bout anything under the sun. Know secrets that prolly YOU don't know. The first one(s) that you think of when something happens and want a listening ear. Someone who will stand by you. Random sms-es to each other, update each other, making time out from our busy schedule to meet up if we can! sleepovers, snuggling in the bedddd. AWWWW. Thinks similarly/know what am I thinking/accepts my thinkings. CHEMISTRY IMPORTANT! Someone who can accept me during my pissy moods and etc HEHEHEHE.
AYE NONE OF MY K04 GIRLS HAVE SLEEPOVER WITH ME YET EH! audrey alw msg me that she's going to stayover, but it nvr happens. I DONT KNOW WHY :(


4. How would you picture your girl/boyfriend?
two words, hector phan
HAHAHAHAHA! okay, basic requirements. Taller and Smarter than me. Knows when to give in, and when not to(but basically nowadays its like street fighters with hec :O) DONT GIVE IN TO ME FOR LIKE EVERYTHING, AND SAY SORRY FOR EVERYTHING. OMG, I CANT STAND THAT! lotsa TLC <3
have nice shoulders and chest for xq to lie one :)
someone who I can spend whole day slacking around, but yet still having fun! Someone who thinks that bowling and arcades are fun, love movies, willing to watch chick flicks, someone who cools down fast just in case i piss him off/quarrel with him.
Someone who loves to play "don't forget the song title/lyrics", have sing-a-long during boring train and bus rides home.
Someone who loves food like i do, and have sweet tooth like i do
Someone who don't mind the fats growing on my body
p.s. I love surprises

5. What are the things you wish you did till today?
(i'm going to add in things that i WISHED i DID/basically my wishes!)
I wish that I continued piano. So upon completion, I'd feel more right to continue with other instruments, like..... violin?
I wish that I still have jazz lessons, so that I'd be fitter and less fat-less, and have more reasons to eat more
I wish that I learnt acrobatics
I wish that I can have a flawless skin like hollywood stars, and no dark eye rings
I wish that I did Salsa
I wish that I entered SCGS
I wish that I can marry hector phan
I wish that I'd be able to succeed in my career
I wish that accounting and econs never ever effer feffer existed
I wish that, I am a World-Class Ballerina. Even if I were to suffer from injuries when I grow old, have rheumatism and etc. But at least, I was ONCE a ballerina. Nothing else, but WORLD-CLASS ballerina.

Tag: Michelle, Crystal, Jiamin, Donavan!

yay, favourite people tomorrow <3 i can't waittttt.

XQ WANTS TO GO SHOPPING, LIKE NOW.

my life is so boring nowwwww
it's hk dramas, go dating, go dance, go shopping. I would very much want to dance more though.


SHOULD I START JOGGINGGGGGGGGGGGGG?


F1, might not work afterall. Goodwood park say that they have lesser suites now, from 700pax to 290pax. TBC! might be able to spend 1.5 anni w hec afterall :)
Sun fest is going to be a money churner for me, get the pay one week after the event!(sounds good)

BOWLING TMRW :)

P.S. 1.5 official anni in 7 days! :) FAST EH.
P.S. xq birthday in 1 month 5 days

1. IT fair was pretty okay, even though kuku hec have more sales than me(HOW CAN IT BE?)
2. 1.5years anni coming <3
3. F1 cominggg. good food, no sleep?
4. bought worms (the game) LIKE FINALLY. ooomg. i'm going to play it after this post! eggcited!



stayed over at aunt's place ytd, with grandma. i realise, everyone around me/my family members, they all ain't young anymore. my grandma, every since my uncle's departure, had really aged alot.
me and my aunt talked bout James understands whatever we humans say, is it pure coincidence that James passed away the same day as my uncle? my uncle was kinda his first owner, the one who trained him and all. basically, my aunt is his mummy, and my uncle is his daddy.
days before he passed on, my aunt did tell him many times if he was in pain, feel time its time for him to go, he can go. saying that we will all be alright, and to say hello to his daddy for us. I think James understands all that.
We talked alot bout James, he was such a sensible boy. Everytime when I walk around the house, walk towards my aunt's house, I really miss the happy bark of James. He loves people, he loves his family members.

We recalled times when we pretended to fight, and James was panicking, trying to go in between us, hoping to break us up. When we stopped "fighting", that silly old man, started wagging his tail, whining and giving happy barks. He is really such a good boy, even though he is sooo bodoh. I miss you James.

And we continued talking to bout my uncle's death, recalling some incidences. I have such complicated family, such a grandfather whose blinded by his 4th wife, even when his son was at his dying breath. He, caused so much problems to my family in the earlier days, brought so much misery to my grandma. I really regret for taking my grandma for granted when I was young, really. Despite of my grandma's dementia, she don't remember any of my aunt's or cousins. Except me. The one who was the most disobedient, but yet the one who spend most of the time with her when I was young. She can say that the person who she lives with(my 2nd aunt), is her long time friend. She only remember she have a granddaughter, called qiqi/xiaoqi. I feel really sad.
My mum always say that I don't care and things like that, but i do. I do try to make grandma happier when I see her, like I try to talk to her and things. It might not be obvious, but i really care.

There's so much for me to say, but I just can't put them into words. I will not suffer the same fate as all of my other family members. I will fight for my own happiness, my family. I will find out what kinship really mean.

to all: yes, james is gone.

he passed away on the 8th sept, which happen to be my uncle's death anniversary, whom james was rather close to, when my uncle is still around. He really listens to my uncle's commands and all, (he dont listen too well to my aunt sometimes you see, cos my aunt spoils him) but thank god, james is a very good boy :)

met hec ytd, and was telling him that I really do miss James and things like that. And I just started talking bout all the things that silly old goat did, etc. Well, at least James is always living in our memory :)

on a happier note, I did self shopping today. after APEC crap, went to ritz for banquet(change dept), G2000 to buy pants, shop here and there, than head to town!
I BOUGHT THE UGLY LOOKING COURT SHOES, but what made me feel better is, its Americaya, and its very comfy! shall use that for F1 and SSM. and i shopped at Ion :$ total damage today is approximately $200! bought a lovely dress for $75, so guilty, but i'm not complaining!! <3




IT FAIR TMRWWWWWWWW. There's incentive this time, work hard xq (:

James

8th september, 2009

it's been 12 years since James and I knowned each other
I used to be so afraid of him cos he loves to jump on me, which is rather scary for a little kid whose still so short. However, he's the tamest, kindest and sweetest dog on earth

He was racist and sexist(he nvr liked indians and guys-other than my uncles/cousins)
He would beg, giving you his paw and sympathetic eyes when you have ba gua, love letters and cheese in your hand as this are his top 3 favys.
He has no pride when it comes to food.

We used to play hide 'n' seek where I will trick him, and the bodoh dog never knew. My aunt and I will be laughing away, but he'd wag his tail and run towards me when he sees me again
He's one dog who thinks that fetch is not fun, but tug-o-war is more fun
Never play badminton with James around, unless you dont mind all the shuttlecocks you dropped are chewed up
IDK WHY, he never fail to sneeze on my leg. ONLY MINE, and its such a gooey experience


He loves to let out his fatal stinkbomb when everyone's around. Jm totally experienced that numerous times
HE LOVES TANNING TTM. EVERYDAY WITHOUT FAIL. he'd tan at the garden, the most ridiculous one, is he can lie on the cement floor and tan. IDK HOW HE TAKE THE HEAT!
He loves to lick you when you are sweaty/come back from swimming
He feels challanged when he sees joggers/cyclist during his walks, so despite that silly old goat is not that good with his leg as he's aging, he will still walk/try to run. (must be guy's pride and ego, but he's snipped off alrdy though)
He LOVES to watch hot chicks, ESPECIALLY air stewardess, only the pretty ones. There's a few pretty ones at Elias Green last time (I think the one at block5 is his eye candy)

He never fail to wake me up, when he thinks its time for me to wake up
(so i don't exactly get to sleep til 12 or 1pm when he was staying with me)
He will wake me up, putting his head on my bed, licking me and with his smelly breath
When I'm really upset and cry, He sits next to me silently, putting his head on my lap.
He knows he have alot of nicknames, and responds to everyone of them. James boy, Jamie, James-bo, old man, fatty boy, greedy pig. He knows he's old, he know's he's old man.
He still loves and dote on tabby, even though tabby is such a big bully.

James's story is never-ending

He hates the three letter word "bye"
so do I

Bye James. I love you.

okay, blogger stil hates me. i realise i had been saying that during the past god-knows-how-many-posts. and i'm uberrrrr tired now! am going to finish posting, bathe, sleep. timecheck: 11.33pm

basically the past two days been working,
"thank you for calling ritz carlton millenia. Good Afternoon, how can i assist you?"
"please allow me to transfer your call to whatever dept/guest's room it is"
"certainly/my pleasure" (and i got a bad habit of saying welcome, hi, may i help(MY BNJ WORDS)- apparently words that are commonly used there, are all BANNED.

but its quite a bit of fun, i have nice colleagues :) and using opera system, where i found that one of the guest have a surname called FERRARI. I was addressing him as, Mr Ferrari. SOUNDS WEIRD. and one guest from disney tv eh!

enough of my amusement from work, something has been bothering me, in a way for the second day.
story goes:
this colleague, from the concierge i think, he studies palm reading and fengshui. do any of you happen to believe in it? and my other colleague(from my dept) said that he's very accurate, like alot things he predicted actually came trueeee!

SO

briefly say what he said bout XQ
Wealth&career: quite good. I will get to accomplish what I want. Greater success will come when i take things in my own hand (i'm going to have a walk in wardrobe, and yes, LABELS)
Love/Marriage: apparently, xq ain't fated to get married. its not impossible, but it will be a strain. and there will be this point in time when i will be really upset/depressed where I might even harbour suicidal thoughts. But someone, who know both my boyfriend and I very well, will be the one who save me from it. But however, I would never know it was actually that particular person who saved me (SOUNDS CHIM RIGHT)
Life: I would probably die after I had accomplished my life missions and wishes. I would not be those that will live long like 80s/90s. Well, i personally wouldn't wanna live so long because
1.I don't wanna suffer and the people around me to suffer.
2. Look exceptionally old, ugly, wrinkled and etc in the coffin. At least let me have plastic surgery? :O
3. I don't want to suffer from dementia or whatsoever illness that will drag on for super long, letting me die slowly. in pain eh!
ohwell, we shall see.

I feel kinda sad bout the love thing. I asked him if there's anyway if i can curb it, but he say he will tell me next time. OH, and not being able to have a blissful marriage, is not because of me prioriting work and such. It's more to that!

ANYONE BELIEVER IN THIS KINDA THING?

well, I will accept what he said for wealth and career. At least I know I don't have to be roadsweeper(thank god)
As for love part, I shall decide my fate myself, and not decided by my palms. However, I will still want to know how I can curb it. It is just to play safe.

OOOHMAN. ITS 11.40PM! I NEED TO GO AND BATHE, AND VA-VA-VROOM GO AND SLEEP. SO TIRED.
-work ytd from 9-5, dance till 12. reach home bathe 1plus. WORK AT 7 FRIGGING AM! !@#$%^&
nvrmind, think of money.

BLOGGER IS STIL WEIRD! i cant change my font colour and all. EEEYER.

anyway, first day of work! :)
1. OPERA IS IMPORTANT! leave message for guests when they are not around, locator, confidential stay, checking of reservations and such.
2. so many extensions to remember!
3. i think talking on headphone is kinda cool
4. my colleagues are nice :)
5. i'm the youngest there. the next nearest is 22. if DONN GETS IN, i'm stil the youngest!
6. i hear things like, back of house, front of house, heart of house, ORG CHART?
7. the gm of ritz, he's surname is mainguy(not pronounced as main-guy though), no wonder he's the gm. LITERALLY MAIN-GUY. lame right! that's what my in charge told me, said mayb she should change her name -.-

i'm so going to wake up early, and sleep early for the whole hols. maybe i wont have panda eyes, cos i sleep and wake up early! :)


P.S. I HAVEN TELL THEM BOUT ME WORKING FOR SUN FEST. HOW SIA. THAT'S 12 DAYS, HOW TO FIND EXCUSE FOR 12 DAYS? I GOING ON HOLIDAY? :O
P.S. I'M GOING HK WITH JM DURING DEC HOLIDAYS! JUST US! AND TSZ LAM, COS SHE'S GOING BACK TO HK FOR THE HOLS! COOOOL OR WHAT!MY MUM ALLOWED SEH.

sighs to waking up early :( ARRRGH. wake up early, means i have to sleep now. at 12:32

blogger is STIL WEIRD! whats wrong with you blogger?

went out with czuming ytd, wanted to shop shop, but owell. orchard is so disappointing. its really like, nothing to buy!
didn't go back to north vista this time, like nobody go back! i dont mind north vista, i just miss my friends that's all! so i went to orchard with my mum and aunt for some dance stuffs than trained to bishan for my long-desired prawn noodles! satisfying <3

tomorrow is first day of work at ritz carlton! my communications job. hahahahah! have to wear formal sial. but kinda looking forward in a way, rather curious how things works. and i'm going to work sun festival! :) as artiste liason officer, sounds cool right ;) its like being nanny for the international stars that are coming for the sun festival! and and and, the ballet gala is on 3rd oct, 2nd day of sun fest. I HOPE I'D BE ABLE TO BE LIKE, ATTACHED TO THEM OR SOMETHING? HOW COOL!

on a random note, i'm kinda gaining a bit of a weight. sighs, my weight like a roller coaster you know.

and jm's mama agree on jm going overseas holiday with me, like after As or something. I haven't ask my mum yet, but....idk if she will allow leh! confirm say not safe or what. owell, we shall see.

photos!





same same pose pose

picture of the day! <3


tabby mimi and james, if only tabby was still alive. it's hard to see the 3 of them sitting so closely tgt and looking at the same direction! during my two nights stay at my aunt's place, it really breaks my heart to see james like that. he's really getting old. i love you whiney old man!